A small flame

A small flame

On our 15th anniversary



''It's a miracle we still love each other after 15 years.''
This is what we tell each other across a sink-full of dirty dishes
and isn't it true!
That any two, sinful, imperfect people can keep laughing and loving
and choosing each other again every day
is nothing short of miraculous.

Over the years we've traded candlelight for burning the midnight oil
while we clean up after sick kids or write seminary papers ...
violins playing 'our song' for the din of crazy boy-noise (times 3!) ...
and adoring vows for the everyday humdrum of budgets and parenting.

But through it all we've loved each other
and we've loved the Miracle Worker more
and a chord of 3 strands is not easily broken.

And, somehow, the secret to living our dream isn't having an easy life;
it's being side by side in the trenches,
fighting to love better and bring God more glory.

It's a miracle we still love each other after 15 years.
Here's to the next 15 years of miraculous.
Happy Anniversary, my love.

No, Fear - it's all about Who's in your boat

One of my favorite lessons about fear came when I was a teenager and it blesses me still all these years later. My family and I were going through a difficult time in our mission field home. Circumstances had happened that left us feeling vulnerable and unsafe in our home, which if you've never experienced it, is extremely unsettling. We had the opportunity to host an elderly American pastor and his wife for a few days and he shared this passage with us from Luke 8.

22 One day Jesus said to his disciples,  
“Let’s cross to the other side of the lake.” 
So they got into a boat and started out.  
23 As they sailed across, Jesus settled down for a nap. 
But soon a fierce storm came down on the lake. 
The boat was filling with water, and they were in real danger.

24 The disciples went and woke him up, 
shouting, “Master, Master, we’re going to drown!
When Jesus woke up, he rebuked the wind and the raging waves. 
Suddenly the storm stopped and all was calm.  
25 Then he asked them, “Where is your faith?”
The disciples were terrified and amazed. 
“Who is this man?” they asked each other. 
“When he gives a command, even the wind and waves obey him!”

Then, the pastor looked at us, sitting weary and fear-worn around our living room, and asked simply,
'When were the disciples safest? Before or after Jesus calmed the storm ?'

The disciples' our-boat's-going-to-sink fueled fear was really more about their perception of what was happening than actual danger. Because Jesus was in their boat the entire time. He knew exactly what was happening and he knew exactly what he was going to do. He was never surprised by the storm and that boat did not take on one more drop of water than he had originally planned it would.

Since God is always in control of my circumstances. . . Since he crazy-loves me and does not withhold any good thing from me {Psalm 84:11}, I am always safe. Come beautiful sunsets or boat-sinking deluges, nothing surprises or overwhelms His perfect plan for me.

And that's the best reason for No, Fear.